So let me start from the beginning...
I have always been "chunky". I remember being 9 years old and my family talking to me about losing weight. I look back at pictures of that time, I don't see how they say that. I have a daughter who is 7, and I would never tell her she was fat. What I would do is encourage her to be into more psychical activities, like soccer and dancing.
I was in gymnastics, but that didn't last long. My family moves around a lot and when we moved my parents never bothered to put me in another gymnastics class, or any other activity for that matter.
So lets fast forward to age 12. This was the first time I tried Slim Fast, the nastiest diet drink invented by man (at the time). Well all was going well until my father found out that Slim Fast had caffeine in it, next thing I knew it was in the trash. So lets fast forward again, to age 14. This time I was going to lose all my extra weight, which looking back on pictures I would not say I was fat, I was just a bit chunky.
I worked my rear end off in the garage, jogging, lifting weights (a car muffler :p ) and even rode my stationary bike for HOURS. I lost some weight, but I didn't know that eating nothing was actually hampering my progress.
So I struggled from that time on constantly dieting, cheating, feeling guilty for eating and generally having a horrible relationship with food. By the time I turned 20 I was around 175 lbs, which would be fine if I was 6 ft tall but alas I am merely 5'1" so 175 looks more like 250 :p I was having a lot of fun at this time and I dressed any way I wanted and didn't give a damn who thought I was fat, as a matter of fact I didn't even feel fat.
By age 23 I met and married my husband and he had no complaints about my weight. Within a year of being married though I gained 25 pounds and was really feeling horrible. I experimented with different ways to lose weight, juice fast, lemon juice diet, Atkins, and all the other BS that is out there and nothing worked. I even busted my booty at the gym and that did nothing. I remember leaving the gym and all I wanted to do was eat a ton of potato's, fried, mashed, baked - whatever, I didn't care I was just hungry!
So fast forward to Sept of 2010, a few month after the birth of my son. I saw that my doctors office was offering Lap-Band and was holding an orientation for people to meet the doctor and learn what Lap-Band was all about. I decided that it was time and I needed to do this, so one rainy night my sister-in-law and I drop the kids off at my parents house and went to go see what it was all about.
Dr. Manuelle was AWESOME! The surgery was a cinch and Lap-Band was a miracle cure for my fat ass!! Well that's not all true, but that is exactly how I felt at the time. So I set up an appointment, got all my paperwork in order and went in to my various appointment:
First, call insurance company and find out if I need to be seen at a center of excellence...I didn't...Check Done AWESOME!
Second, meet with my doctor and get an appointment for a consultation with Dr Manuelle...Check
Third, Meet with a dietitian and go over what I have done so far to lose weight and why it has not worked and why I need the surgery...DONE! Woot Woot Check!
Fourth, Meet with a therapist and make sure I am not crazy....how I passed this test I don't know but guess what...CHECK, DONE, BoooYa!!
Lastly I had to fill out a ton of papers explaining my medical history and showing all the different things I had done to lose weight and how I failed. This part was pretty tedious, but I got through it....Check!
I met with Dr. Manuelle and he went over what the surgery would entail and asked if I had any questions, and I did not..I was just ready to change my life for the better...come on lets do this !!
I had to get an ultrasound to make sure there was nothing freaky going on inside of me, and that I didn't have gallstones, and I had to have some blood work - I had them both done that week.
I waited a few days for the nurses to call me back with a surgery date. This part was a little tricky, we had a previous unpaid bill with my doctor that was on payments of around $70 a month but the Docs wanted it all paid off before they scheduled my surgery...so I had to wait 2 extra months to pay off the bill. So finally I went in 2 weeks ago and paid it off and the girls made my appointment for the surgery, March 22, 2011.
So now here we sit. I am doing the first part of the "getting ready for Lap-Band" which is to drink this horrid drink called OptiFast
I started the OptiFast on March 8th, and today is day 5 of my starvation diet. Turns out they want you to diet so you lose some of the fat around your liver so your stomach is more easily accessible. This part is so hard, I think of food constantly. My tummy rumbles and I feel like I am starving. But I think of it this way, only 9 more days to go!!!
So I am going to try and write every day, I am really interested to see how I change (if any) from now until I reach my goal weight!
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