Support

Okay day two of this blog, and I am already frustrated!! At least I am not thinking about food :) I cant figure out how to add a post title, and from everything I see on the web, this editor that I use to write the post should give me an option to add a title, but it does not! Oh well, moving on.

If this post DID have a title it would be called "Support"

I think it's very important to have the support of those around you, when you are considering this surgery. What I mean to say is my husband is an unsupportive git! There I said it! And no I am not taking it back! A few weeks ago I told someone (maybe Viv-my sister in law, or Tamara-My best friend) these exact words, "Just watch, as soon as I start this starvation diet Ayhan is going to start buying milk shakes and cookies and cakes and pies - all the shit he never eats! And he is going to leave them all over the house and eat them constantly".

I wasn't too far from the mark, today is day 6 and from day 1 he has just magically decided he wants cookies and pizza, and he is going to leave them all over the kitchen! My kitchen now looks like a fat kids paradise!! Not to mention my pantry is full of any type of chip and salty snack you can think of. The fridge is also jam packed with stuff, but this time it's cucumbers and tomatoes and all kinds of greenery that I crave constantly!!

This is nothing new, when I decided to quit smoking before I got pregnant with my second child, I went to a hypnotist and amazingly when I left his office I felt great! But as soon as I got home Ayhan jammed a pack of smokes in my face and was hounding me to have one. His excuse: "I am just seeing if the hypnotist works so I can go too" *coughBULLSHITcough*

The next time we decided to quit was last summer. This was going to be a team effort!! We were going to do it!! So 4 days in he decides he is too "stressed out" and cant continue, so I am left quiting all on my own.  He would smoke and come cuddle with me - mind you he never cuddle, this was just to make sure I got a nice whiff of the smoke.  Anyways I last a good 2 months and started smoking again - I don't blame Ayhan, I had a lot going on at the time and I was not ready to quit.  Hopefully soon I will be able to quit for good.

So now it's this diet, he is really having a hard time getting me to eat, and you can see the disappointment in his wee beady little eyes.  Yesterday I finally told him to clean up his cookies from the kitchen and start being supportive, of course he denied his lack of support, but seriously what is he going to say?  That he was purposefully trying to sabotage my chances at being Mini-Me?  I think not!

So make sure you have a good support group and get the whole family on board before you even begin this process, because trust me it's much harder when you have to fight every single day and this is just the pre-op fasting!!