11 lbs!!!

3 days after surgery and I feel great!!  11 lbs gone!  I am 225 and I am loving it.  I still feel really dizzy if I move around too fast or sit up for too long, and I am still sore all over my body but it feels so damn good to be 11 lbs lighter!

I had a hell of a time yesterday.  I was achy and my husband was not being supportive at all.  I asked him to get me a pillow for behind my head and he wrenched my head up so fast it felt like someone stuck a dagger in my belly.  Then he handed my my med without a cup to take it in and walked away to get back to his precious card game.

I don't think I can ever forgive him for the way he has treated me while I am down.  I just needed someone to talk to to keep my mind off the pain and he couldn't be bothered.  It's all good though.  I need to realize that this is a journey I have to take by myself and for myself and celebrate on my own.  I don't need anyone else, I can do it alone and take all the credit myself.  I don't know why I am shocked he has always been very aloof when I have needed him, but this time I wont forget it, he shot himself in the foot this time.

Thankfully my cousin called me last night and made me laugh for 3 hours and forget all my worries, too bad it was already after I had taken a double dose of my meds.  I need to stop with the meds already, they stop the pain but man I pay for it later.  They make me dizzy and sick to my stomach and when they wear off my whole body hurts.

I got to take my first shower today!!  It's so nice to get the stench of hospital off me!  I feel clean and new and a bit shiny.  I need to go lay back down for a bit and get rid of this dizzy feeling but maybe I will write more later.