I got on the scale today and it says I am 222, which I am sure is a lie. I can't believe my eyes!! I am the incredibly shrinking woman!! While I am very excited about my weight loss I am feeling unsure about the rest of my life.
My husband and I are not getting along. Just like most married couples we have the usual run of the mill problems, but we also have problems that are not easily solvable and require either a lot of attention or simply to call it quits.
That is what I am struggling with right now. I would like to be able to work on a solution to our problems, but the effort and time and commitment it takes to fix everything that is wrong just seems so overwhelming! I personally take half of the blame for everything that is going on. I am a very stubborn person and I like things just so, but if my partner is not willing to take any blame then how can we work it out?
So I am thinking my marriage is over. Now the hard part begins. He is not talking to me, sharing his plans so that I know what my next step is going to be. I have taken the initiative and I am meeting with a career counsellor tomorrow to see where I need to be.
I am also going to call my family therapist and see if she can help me sort some of this stuff out. As for the lap-band my problems are so small! I have small pains here and there around my stomach but I feel great! It's been hardly a week and I can eat soft foods with only small discomfort. I am steadily loosing weight still and it makes me believe I am doing something right.
I stopped the pain meds. Sunday night was my last dose and I feel better for it. The meds are awesome, but they make me feel out of it and I can care less if the world goes down in flames around me. It's hard to stay away from them when life is so turbulent right now but I know that I need to get back to life and face them music.
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