Soooo it's been a while!!! A long ass while! I redid my surgery, went for gastric bypass in October 2014. Was the best decision I ever made! I'm done to the mid 150's!!!!
I can wear most everything from any store! I can shop in the juniors section!
I still have miles to go though....next goal 120. I'll get there but I have totally stalled. I guess when you sit at a desk all day its easy to not lose any weight.
I want to change this blog into a ranting blog, because now I'm having serious ranting issues, maybe because I dont eat lol
Today I was driving to my daughters graduation and I totally flipped my shit.
I lost my mom about a year ago and I've been trying my damnedest to keep up a strong front, but I totally flipped out!
I'm driving down the road windows shut, music blaring and screaming and crying my freakin eyes out!! If I had something to punch I totally would have!
Meh, it feels better writting it out and it sounds totally pantsy ass. I guess we all grieve in different ways. Maybe I should take up running...yes me exercise!!! Its amazing what losing weight does, you can move your ass from here to there, in a fucking jiffy!!!
One last thing...I'm still feeling fat on the inside, it's like my brain is still a big girls brain and I lump myself in with big girls. I guess it sounds fucking lame to real big girls who now look at me like a skinny bitch.
It's kinda fucked up you forget you are now a size 8 and considered skinny by most standard.
Anyways, I should sleep, gotta be at work in a few hours, and thats a rant for another day!!
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